Another part

I want to introduce you too another side of me, one you will probably see more of, the coward side. She is awake again, she is wondering what the fuck I am doing! She doesn't want me to leave for anywhere, especially not another continent. She thinks I'm crazy (and probably is right!)
I am doing my best to fight her, but for some reason it feels very difficult right now. And it feels as though it will only get more difficult as time goes.
Right now I am wondering, what the fuck am I doing?